Cara’s Training 2007 – A Letter From Cara Barker

My Dear Friends and Family,

The time has come. As we look about、we see so many signs of summer、with all her outer activity. Fruit and vegetables are plentiful in the marketplace. THe river flows gracefully around the rocks. The sounds of laughing children is everywhere、so happy to be freed from the constraints of the schoolhouse、so delighted to be splashing in the stream. We understand、don't we? Ah、how blessed is our freedom.

Yet、as I look about、I see、as well、the early evidence that a new season is on its way. Autumn brings each of us、and all Creation、to the requirement of letting go. Letting go of all that is no longer needed. Letting go of all that restricts our freedom to live more freely、more authentically、more intimately as ourself in this world. Letting go of old life、outdated beliefs and attitudes. Letting go to make room for rest、and then、the beautiful new life awaits within us.

And so it is: the time for us approaches、too. This is a time for the Eternal Return to the essence of who we are、and what makes our hearts sing. Let us、therefore、return with family and friends to our spiritual practice together in our Homeward Bound Retreat. Let us、in so doing、return together to all that is sacred、to all that makes life most meaningful. Let us return to ourselves、and one another、with all that has evolved since last we met. Let us learn greater kindness to our little monkey mind. Together、we will joyfully、creatively、positively、collaboratively explore the Secret of your own Heart's Song、and discover what we can do to grow together、and as individuals in bringing our Secret Beauty into grateful expression. Yes、it is time to temporarily turn away from the outer world、with all its distractions and demands、in order that we can renew our Spirit、relocate our Wisdom、bring forth our magnificent heart's intelligence and love. This is our intention. This is the Law of Creation、of which you and I are vital reflections. All for which you long is available. All for which you yearn surrounds you this very moment. All that you seek is reaching back to you、if you would only trust the process. All this gold is waiting in your heart to be found. Let us see what we can find together、and rejoice.

Know that I have missed you very much. Know that I hold you in the center of my heart and prayers. I yearn for the time in September when you、and those you bring join me in growing、and in continuing to evolve in splendid ways. You deserve the best. You deserve rest. You deserve an even greater chance to be the you that you were born to become. You deserve to live the beautiful life that you came here to live.

Meanwhile、know that all is well. There is nothing to fear. You are not alone.
Much love、and many blessings to you、and to all those whose lives you touch,

Cara

dear all(lap 11)

dear all:
昨天我在網上和衛斯理聊著聊著，很有些感觸。對於我們這個群體，對於發生的一切，總像有許多話卡著，一定得說出來。
我在經歷，我在學習，經營一段美好的關係。除了豐盛的體驗，也開始面臨遠距離所帶來的不安全感，不信任感和自己的自信、害怕、恐懼等等。
我在和這些深層信念拉扯，也害怕失去自由自在、喜悅豐盛的體驗。剛下飛機到中心，看見CARA的信的標題:"放手，然後擁有"時有一股震撼感，在那個當下我擁有我的體驗，而且能感受到自己在那句話裡面。放手，自由，拋下一切束縛自己的舊信念和看法，一次又一次，學習不斷地給出信任，和包持開放去接受任何回應 ，我的RANGE變大了，可最大的改變，我覺得我和人的距離近了，我能親近、也讓別人親近自己了。但在此同時，對於距離也變的格外敏感。

昨天和衛斯理聊到，回國後，覺得十一和我出國前不ㄧ樣，我們的連結程度差多了。衛斯里說是我變了，也許這是一個原因；但更重要的是，十一真的變了。
每天，我必須花很多力氣才能和某人保持聯繫，我們不只有距離的隔閡，更大的還在語言上；但是只要有心，這算的了什麼呢?只要我們都願意，真的可以一起向前走的。他在地球的另ㄧ邊，我們的時間差六小時；可我和我的家人只在同個城市，相較之下，簡直是咫尺天涯!

"我們住的這麼近，可是為什麼彼此的心這麼遙遠?"

一想到這句話，忍不住覺得難過，昨天就這樣坐在電腦前抱頭痛哭。

聚在ㄧ起的時候，好像也沒有那麼在意對方了，彼此不知道彼此在經歷什麼，脆弱不願意被看見，不願意開放被支持。那我們為什麼還要聚在ㄧ起?
在某個時點，我們選擇了彼此，成為一個團隊，互相支持互相陪伴，我們一起走過了將近一年，一路上跌跌撞撞，可是看著十一道光芒的願景圖，我們都想要一個家，所以沒有間斷地走到現在。

一年的時間可以改變很多事。L從行屍走肉變成懂得感恩、欣賞生命的貴婦，K用無條件的付出拿到自己的結果，V從輕浮自大到沉穩，B終於開始有血有肉，J遠赴大陸為自己的生命找出路，G即將結婚的臉上發出從所未見柔和的光芒，p從對人完全的不信任到開始付出，還有J宣告年底結婚，衛斯理出國前把我罵了一頓....我們跟人的距離一向遙遠，是什麼讓我們選擇放下戒備和過往模式，選擇相信一群從不認識的人?是什麼讓一群不懂得愛但渴望被愛的人緊緊的靠在ㄧ起?每一次一起吃宵夜，一起變胖，一起看電影，不和別的朋友卻和這群人一起過週末?

去年的中秋節，第一週末，我們選擇了彼此。在秘密基地搖籃到天亮。
去年的跨年，一邊衝刺一邊看煙火。畢業的那天，看到願景圖每個人都掉淚。
然後一個一個回來貢獻付出，走work時聽到隊歌每次都很激動。
我從來沒有為一群人、甚至為自己流過這麼多淚。
這一段路不容易，可是我們走過了，lap太多美好、或說不可思議的回憶。
畢業八個月，考驗正要開始，lap只是彼此收買美好的回憶，還是繼續往前走，走一輩子?
我們是真的為彼此的生命下賭注，還是玩弄表面功夫?
這種遊戲在過去的人生早就玩膩了，我也沒有興趣再玩一次。

所以呢?十 一會怎麼走?還是就這樣散了?我不知道，但我的願景還在。我還不甘心就這樣停。
衛斯里有本事在寫一封信，活回來啊!總k復活給我們看啊!!!把該說的話說一說吧!每個人都悶一肚子話是怎樣?你當我是陌生人嗎?

要合要分，我們走著瞧吧!!


Emma

Note

"I think the destination is not the problem,whether we are strong enough is the keypoint."

we are seperated from each other because of the destination,we both know it,yes,but we can also learn a lot from the process.you know?this is the most beautiful thing to be with you that could happened.

"if it is necessary,there must be a way for us.there must be a way of our life."

一路走來

部落格非常久沒有更新了，很對不起大家。因為自從bremen之後，發生了太多太多事，有時候我也不知該從何說起，於是便這樣擺著、晃著，日子也一天天過去。

從bremen至duesseldof，看見了西邊的典型大城，萊茵河在我腳下流過；然而東德和西德竟令人有完全不同的兩個國家的錯覺，或許是那段時間的分隔造成這樣的差異吧!可我喜歡東德更多一點^^

然後，阿姆斯特丹，帶回了我這趟旅程最棒的禮物:歐先生 :)

飛回台灣，人生像是突然轉彎了，一切都變的不可思議。

現在我在台北，六張犁，外頭風強雨驟，颱風天人人待在家哩，想起一路走來，不禁感到際遇的神奇，仍有ㄧ種難以相信的感覺，生命實在太美好了，尤其阿姆斯特丹的的三天，像夢境一樣。

我很開心，一路上遇到很好的人，很棒的事物，生命似乎能夠無限伸展，你不知道它能伸展到什麼地方，可是充滿可能性:)

自由的空氣，讓我捨不得回來。帶著自由的空氣回來，我能拋開一切，隨心所致，任意畫上我想要的色彩。我確信我是強壯的，有足夠的能量承擔，也非常感謝上天給的一切，就像禮物一樣，意想不到的驚喜。時候到了，人生越來越悠然自得，不論是意外或是轉折，我似乎能接受更多。

自由和開放是我最大的學習吧!

越往前走，似乎能看見越開闊的天空，你無法想像它的顏色，可那絕對是一種絕美，而且只屬於你自己的。

Rundfahrt durch Norddeutschland

I'm now in a nice hostel named "Townside."To agday I met a woman come from Japan,and we agree that traveling around in Germany is quite convenient for the good traffic system and cheap,clean hostels:)

after thay first dy in Berlin,I went to the big city-Hamburg.It's more big and beatiful than my imagination.When I was in the port,there were many boats stayed inside,and the river"Nordelbe" just go through the old houses.You can see many old buildings with different colors in between.It's very beautiful,especially at the late afternoon!I have so little time in the city that I could only see these area"Hafenstadt,"but it's just the beginning of its beauty!Idon't want but I must leave the city in this morning,and I decide,next time when I come back to Germany I must visit it again!

Now I'm in another city-Bremen,a famous city in the north Germany.It's not so big as Hamburg,but quiet and also amaizng:)) The Sant Patri. Kirche is as good as the oldtown,you will find just like live in the middle century.when you walk through the street、you can usually find something amaziing after turn to the corner.A lot of small cute shops hide in this area,so it makes lots fun!As a tourist,I'm really attracted by this kind of old town!

tomorrow I'll go to Dusseldof and meet O,we will travel to Amsterdam together.So that I won't be alone any more.Traveling alone is more free,but on the other side it's not so much fun like being with your good friends!I really miss Maria,Kantna,You-soep,Tom&Tina,and O,those people who appeared and accomanied with me in my life.They are all very nice people,kind of gifts to me.I'm very lucky.

2,SEP,2007 in Bremen